To love is to respect

2011-06-29T16:13:00.001+08:00

There was a blind girl who was filled with animosity and despised the world. She didn't have many friends, just a boyfriend who loved her deeply, like no one else. She always used to say that she'd marry him if she could see him. Suddenly, one day someone donated her a pair of eyes.

And that's when she finally saw her boyfriend. She was astonished to see that her boyfriend was blind. He told her, "You can see me now, can we get married?" She replied, "And do what? We'd never be happy. I have my eye sight now, but you're still blind. It won't work out, I'm sorry."

With a tear in his eye and a smile on his face, he meekly said, "I understand. I just want you to always be happy. Take care of yourself, and my eyes."

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One night a guy and a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed & that it was time to move on.

A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note.

At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy. Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out & read it. "Without your love, I would die."

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There was a girl named Becca and a boy named Joe. Becca was in a burning house. None of the firefighters could get in the house because the fire was too big. Joe dressed in one of the fire suits and got into the house. When he got up the stairs, the steps fell off behind him. When he got into her room he sealed the door up behind him. He held her tight, kissed her, huged her, then said that he loved her. She asked what was wrong, and he said that he was going to die. Her eyes widened as she began to cry. He picked her up and jumped out of the four story house. He landed on his back with her on top of him. He died to save her life.

To love, is to respect.

Love

2010-09-30T13:53:00.002+08:00

When I was a kid, my dad often buy a lot of toys for me.

When I was a kid, I will run and hug my mother whenever I hear the thunder.

The little boy that sits on his daddy neck.

The little boy that holds his mummy hand whenever they go out.

I believe that is the same for most of the people.
For me it is a lifelong passion for love.
Yet I didnt grow up to become a lover.

Many children who initially show the love to their parents are rejecting it as they grow older.

I believe that children are natural-born lovers. They are very simple minded and naive. And they arent afraid to admit and show their love to someone.

They are very honest, when they love you they show it to you in very obvious ways.

When they dont like you, they cry when you hug them.

Unfortunately, most of us lose this as we get older.

We become self-conscious, and we dont want to appear stupid to others by showing affection for our loved ones.

Instead of loving the way we should have. We choose to hide it.
We do things that are often misleading.
We act as if we love someone that we hate.
We act as if we dont love someone we love.

As people get older, from a child to a teen to an adult.

From a lovely child that everyone love, most people became rebellious, we occasionally became rude to our parents, do things to spite them. ( I don't blame them, its part of the teenage growing process)
When we get older, we tend to be busy with our own things.

When we see them, we hug them anymore.
We dont even say I love you now that we are educated and knows how to talk because of our parents hardwork and upbringing and ensures that we receive education.

Sometimes, when they ask you for help in something. You simply reject them with your 101 excuses.

We continue and continue to be busy with our own things.

Some of the kids grew up and ended in undesirable places. Some is doing well, and some, very well.

We keep getting busy with our own things, we keep ignoring them, we keep the love we have for them.

One day they left.

You cry, you regret.

You became emotional,

you tell yourself you didn't cherish them enough.

Yes, you didnt, we don't know what we have before we lose them.

This is the first time I am staying at home alone when my parents go overseas.

The bowl I used two days ago, remained in the sink.

Everynight my sister will help to wash the clothes, the next morning dry them.

And I will feed the fishes and water the plants and sweep the floor.

Without them, my life would be a lot harder.

I hope this entry will bring people who read it to

start loving your parents and everyone around you.

Remember,

a heart that loves is always young.

Hate myself

2010-06-01T02:35:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,
It's been so long since I last wrote something on you that I nearly forgot my username and password for this blog.

Before I start writing anything.

Current emotion now: Troubled, Guilty.

Suddenly a sense of sadness rush into me.
Probably of the series of events that happened a few hours back

1st case:
I left first because it was getting late and I didnt send him back. Hope he doesn't gets into trouble outside. Sorry didn't accomplish my promise to AJ.

2nd case
I accidentally step onto an incense paper pasted on a wall just now. On the middle of the incense paper was a paper figurine. It looks really creepy and it reminds me of the lil ghost stories I've heard before.

Upon reaching home, I rush to wash up and sleep. Within 5 min, I dreamt that I raced with FL's evo and I crash to dodge a person crossing the road. The bike exploded. And I woke up.

Really very creepy.

3rd case,

I think my bike is scratch ;((

Probably only a very small scratch but my heart aches like mad.

Hopefully it's an dillusion.

I shall check tmr.

4th case,

Somewhere on my body is hurting real bad :(

5th case,

I suddenly thought of you.

I think I sucks. And I shouldn't have said all that nonsense.

Without me, you wouldn't have done it.

Without doing it, you can still be right here.

And I can tell you: iloveyou

Now it's too late to regret.

No it's not a quarrel, it's not a fight,

it's far worse than that.

It's irreversible.

I OFFICIALLY HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW!

I don't know why are all these haunting me tonight.

But I really can't sleep.

Thanks, for many people who always encourage me to do what I like.

Thanks, for having so much confidence in me.

Thanks, for complimenting me.

Thanks for telling me I'm smart.

It really really help a lot.

However, it's all just placebo. I am not wise.

Wisdom consists of the anticipation of consequences.

I don't. Period.

2010-01-10T07:02:00.007+08:00

Went to Nabin to Shesha and Vodka. Omg cherry flavour shesha taste horrible. Grape and green apple is much better. Vodka is even worse. -.-

I remember the last time I drank vodka is like a year ago at Kelvin's house lol. That time Annette and me is like drinking the whole bottle of that vodka without mixer on our own. She surprise me by drinking so much. Happening and very steady Annette hahaha thanks.

TODAY, I only drank a few cups of very strong Vodka and I feel like puking. I hate that taste.

I think I can only consume Martell. I cannot stand any other liquor. Will feel like vomit and go drunk easily.

So, after the Vodka, Headed down to Boat Quay to find someone. Just nice Saw Chew, Chew's GF and Alex when we reach.

SO, we went to drink together.

MARTELL WAS,

MUCH MUCH MUCH better !

But I was very tired throughout.

Anyway, its exactly 54 days before I can enrol for 2a. Hopefully I don't get caught in the meanwhile. Hmmm, the more I ride RVF the more I like it. Today just pillion gideon past the 925 corner and "bleach" my slipper. Should have put my feet higher.

But its really dam nice to corner, Rvf is really a very good bike to play with.

However, I'm getting Fireblade due to financial restrictions.

Now the RVF is right under my house and I feel so like riding it but I'm a bit drunk right now. So I better not in case I crash that bike.

Lastly,
BSC members are a great bunch as well as humanlink people. All friendly peeps !

Sad thing is, its only a 9week attachment with them. After which I'll meet diff ppl.
But I believe we'll hang out even after the attachment right guys ?

I cut down a lot on smoking wise alr. Hopefully, Alan and Ryan won't jio me to smoke.

As I don't wanna waste their cigg and wanna quit eventually. Hope they quit with me as well !

And one more thing, I'm gonna eat like mad from now onwards.

Someone told me Charles must be fatter. LOL.

Hitting the gym tmr with Giddy ^_^

NIGHTS ALL =D

Hoping you can pinch me for the rest of your life, but its okay if you cannot do it.

2009-12-31T15:02:00.002+08:00

Its new year eve !

I remember last year this time.

Ny Solution. I sound so serious.

No smoking !

And I didnt do it.

And now I'm gonna say it again.

Hopefully next year this time I'm not smoking alr.

Anyway, Its new year eve and I still got work.

Thats the only solution to all my troubles !

Making myself busy. As busy as possible.

Afterwards BBQ at Alvin house and maybe Marina barrage =( with Francis and guys. Depends if they are hanging out till late.

Sad face to marina barrage not to you guys =)

Recently got some family problems. Hopefully it get resolved soon.

Same old problem exists. I'm gonna change it once I grow up I swear.

I dont wanna go back to the hungry life in the past.

I dont wanna save and scrimp every cent on food.

I dont wanna be always so broke and cannot go out.

I'm so gonna change all that.

Goodbye to the past.

Focus on the present.

Plan for the future.

Anyway, today's presentation I don't know why I received comments like 'fierce'.

Haha, maybe I'm always like that.

Dint prepare for anything. Go up and say whats on my mind.

I admit I was lost for words at the beginning of the presentation.

After a while I was talking non stop.

Hopefully that doesnt affect anything.

The final quote of my presentation. As well as the quote for today.

Coming together is the beginning.
Keeping together is the process.
Working together is success.
-Henry Ford

Lastly I wanna say, I HATE GOODBYES.

Theres so much more to say, but I wont say it now.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVE EVERYONE !

2009-12-27T22:02:00.010+08:00

CHRISTMAS 09 at Ritz Carlton.

Theme : Geeky outfit

Obviously, I didnt adhere to the rules on the first day.

I'm goddam hungry that day.

So happy when I saw KFC and Pizzas on the hotel table !

Beautiful scenery from the hotel view

What a wash room !

Its twice the size of my room or even bigger.

THis picture is just half of the toilet.

Bvlgari shampoo and body wash isnt that great. =(

We literally turn the hotel room to a club

And all of us were practically dancing inside half naked !

And We're not drunk at all !

Some Random photos during drinking.

Kids at NYP !

Acting nerd in TAKA

Mw say must post this, cause its a 2nd bday gift from him and wawa.
Thanks both of you !

NO WORDS, JUST PICTURES ! HAHA

2009-12-13T22:27:00.003+08:00

I cant remember the last time I log on to blogger.com

As you can see, its a new blogskin. Special thanks to Rachel MM !!

However, I still dont like it lei. hmmm well nvm.

Anw, its much of a personal diary rather den a public blog now.

As we can see, all my links are gone. So frens, kindly leave down ur link. I'll relink all of you one by one.

I dont wan this post to be a wordy post.

I have a lot of pictures to upload.!

Apparantly, the bluetooth device in this laptop seems to be missing and I do not have the required cable to transfer pics from my phone to this lappy.

Therefore, I unwillingly has to turn this post in a wordy one.

Will upload the pictures once my own lappy is repaired.

Luckily I survived the omen period, its time I start getting serious on my work, and most importantly, save money !

Today, being the last day of my holidays.

Attachment starts tmr MORNING !!!!

Hopefully, I'll meet a friendly bunch of peeps.

Hopefully BSC isnt as bad as I thought it would be.

It al boils down to the word 'HOPEFULLY'

Actually, optimistically thinking, its boils down to 'ME'

Whatever it is, just hope I get up my bed tmr.

Waiting for year 2010.

As usual, quit smoking, stop drinking blar blar blar

And can anyone let me ride or pillion me on a cbr400.

I wanna feel it.

I need to decide upon RVF or CBR!

Darn I miss my SP.

I miss you.

If you're my girlfriend, I promise I won't hurt you, if you're mine, I promise I'd be loyal to you, but you're only my friend and I can't promise I won't fall for you.

2009-11-21T18:35:00.002+08:00

LOL NO MORE tag board. No more music. Someone teach me how to put can. LOL. I dunno how to use blogger's template

2009-11-11T21:03:00.002+08:00

bEFORE I start studying and using this laptop.

THANK YOU ALVIN ONG !!!

FOR GOING HOME TO TAKE UR LAPTOP

FOR DELIVERING IT TO MY HOUSE.

THANK YOU BROTHER !!

2009-11-02T05:49:00.003+08:00

Artistic Toilet in St Regis

Wedding dinner

Sis =D

Swear the toilet at St Regis does not look like toilet at all

Looks more like their hotel room
You can totally sleep on the floor.
So clean!

Halloween is no big deal.

Went to watched Darah.

And that show is WTF.

Chopping each other non stop.

Scenes of violence, brutality and cruelity.

Sad thing is I do not know why must the movie include babies as well.

Why cant u just leave baby outta the picture MR DIRECTOR !?

Nyways if u hate gore movies better dont try this one.

Nights All =D

2009-11-01T00:07:00.005+08:00

And I am back to blog ! Hmmm, got a piece of good as well as a piece of bad news.

Good News is TP has drop the case of that accident.

Bad news is the TAXI Driver go back on his word and sue me now -.-

Hate him to the max, One small lil dent wan to claim 3k.

Anyway ytd rounding was bad.

It was cancelled because of the weather,

And I am dam sorry to Jeremy for waiting alone for me at dam !!

Despite the weather, Me and Co still went ahead.

Supposedly to eat, but it started pouring heavily out of a sudden.

Last day of rounding and it turns out like this.

Anyway, the sway part is here.

My bike's footrest drop on the road,

Meaning, no changing of gear -.-

Hence giddy help me to change the footrest from the brake to the gear side.

So no rear brakes, and I am used to it. So no problem.

Next up, Mw skidded !

Which also let out a scream, that makes u says OMG.

Well, luckily he dint fall.

Lastly, Xiao Liu DROP !!!

On the floor.

Wa heart pain for him.

So 31st October is a fcuking day with a fcuking weather !

AND it starting pouring super heavily !

I think my handphone is spoiling soon. Everytime I get drenched, my phone get drenched together with me.

So I hid my hp inmy helmet for fear that it will catch a cold -,-

Right, stop at one coffee shop at AMK to eat.

And I totally feel like a cake !

I am wearing a jacket and wet all over.

THe feeling SUX !

Totally...

Den I got all so pissed that my day is spoiled lidat.

and its only 3am !

So we decided to go home despite the heavy rain.

Abandon our bikes.

Cab to BQ !!!

Martell with beer taste horrible.!

Thanks to you ah EVAN.

Well, I think the craziest thing of the night is opening a bottle of martell at 5.15am.

Lols, and finishing it in half an hour.

And the funnest part is, WE TOOK MRT HOME.

It takes forever to flag for a cab.

Everyone's snatching.

I suppose the whole MRT is looking at us throughout.

And oh well, Good Bye my LIL PRINCESS BABY !!

Time spend with my bike

When it was white

Red

Those were the good memories I will never forget =)

Photos with alot of meanings

Love At First Sight

Lovely

GOOD BYE !!!

2009-10-20T18:50:00.008+08:00

Funny videos to share !

Turn up ur speakers to hear wad they saying and the way the audiences laugh. HAHA SO FUNNY !!

But pause my song at the top right corner first.

Remember to
Watch them all !!

Baby Bruce Lee ! WAhhh CHARRRRR!!!

MY FAVOURITE VIDEO, STUPID HUMJI AND CUTE BEAR. HAHAHA

Opps!

Very FUnny Prank !

Chicks got pawned !

This is a MUST WATCH !

How was it ? =D

2009-10-17T09:06:00.002+08:00

In case u dont know my christian name,

Its called ''Revenge".

2009-10-08T05:48:00.013+08:00

Pictures do The talking Yo

I find this picture rather artistic

14 People,

One heart.

Prata House =)

THIS

CRAZY?!

My Sister's BF hair. Its real hair !

Cut by Japanese Hairdresser

MERLION !

This Liquor is IMBA.

Mr Sakae.

I rode under the snow

Washing bike la haha

Clean and Shine =D

GoodBye Lovely.

NOT FORGETTING

My beloved students. =D

I've snap pictures of them as well hehe.

I was teaching them the topic on 'TIME'

Me: Alright, do u know how many seconds are there in a minute?

Student: 60.

Me: Good , what about an hour ?

Student: 60.

Me: Splendid. And Me pointing at the clock,

Now,
*Me pointing to the hour hand"

What is that called ?

Student: The Hour Hand

Me: Good, U got that right =D

Again,
*Me pointing to me which is the seconds hand"

What is that called ?

Student: Second Hand.

Me: U got that right again !
Moving on,
*Me pointing to the minute hand
What is that called ?

Student: First Hand. -.-

OWNED..

His voice dam cute when he said FIRST HAND.
And btw he pronouces Decimal as " DE-CAR-MINE'
So Funny !!

And I asked to take a photo of winnie the pooh as i mentioned in my earlier posts.

He said: " No cannot, I naklet. HAHAHA

'NAKLET' IS WAD HE SAID, and he hhide under the table !

Winnie the pooh, tries to siam from my camera

Cute

Please start revising !!

First hand, Second hand =D

First hand, Second hand's lil brother.

He likes to run around the house whenever I come. And goes, Zi Hao Kor Kor, Ni Yao He Shiu Ma ?
HAHAHA.

2009-10-07T19:37:00.002+08:00

I cut thru thousands of cobwebs,

killed hundreds of giant spiders before I finally get here to post.

Humph.

And yes, I killeed it just for the sake of killing it.

So that I will have easier access next time.

I know got a lot of readers who secretly read my blog and dont tag and tag me on my phone. HAHA.

I promise I will update soon.

I GOT HELL Loads of things to blog about !!!

2009-09-30T13:28:00.002+08:00

Thanks everyone for the concern.

I gt hell lots of things to blog about. But No mood to post.

SPecial thanks to Sister,

Buy subway to my house. =D

And thank you taxi uncle for not claiming against me.

And Alvin, dont worry ah. =D

You motivated me last night man.

HAAS,

And I set a curfew time for myself. Back befiore 12am everyday.

Hopefully I can do it.

What a boring post...

OH WELL.

2009-09-28T20:31:00.001+08:00

WHY I SO UNLUCKY?!

Fcuk My Life..

2009-09-21T10:16:00.004+08:00

Due to the day wasted ytd on my bed, I woke up v early this morning.

Only to be seen using my computer.

And then I suddenly smelt something v strong coming from outside my room.

As I see my mother mopping the floor on the living room and slowly advancing into my room.

As she says very proudly.

Didi ah, this one is 'ka lat chiu'.

Ltr u sit on the chair dont step on the floor or ur feet will hurt.

Me: huh, whats 'ka lat chiu' ?!

Mother: H2SO4.

Me: What ?! Where did u buy H2So4 from ?

Den ltr I realise she is trying to tell me that it is 'Acidic'

AND I realise that she is stepping on the floor herself.

Ultra Cuteness.

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End Of 1st Story =D

THeres another cute story I wanna share since a long time ago.

I got this student.

Who was dam it cute.

He have a big tummy but he looks good with it =D

And he basically tries to tells me everything that has happen in his life each time he sees me.

He will tell me who bully him in school,

Tell me that he is stupid BECAUSE he do not wanna do my homework.

Okay, wadever the case He will tell me all sorts of excuse just to avoid from those devilish homework that is awaiting him.

I remember the first time I see him, he likes to keep drinking water.

And I dunno how, but he will wet the whole table, making all my files, papers, books wet..

After he gets to know me for a while, he will change that supposedly 'only water allowed' rule to soft drinks..

Den he started to take off his shirt during my tuition to show me his cute tummy.

WHich sucessfully made me jealous.

After a while, he started asking his mother to buy bubble tea back for him.

Den from feeling wet, I feel sticky and wet.

AND den !

He started kneeling on the chair and leaning his entire weight on the table to do his work.

DEN HE STARTED EATING HONEY DURING MY CLASS !

And he sure reminds me of WINNIE THE POOH .

He puts ALOT ALOT of honey into a bowl, and starting scooping them with a BIG SPOON.

And just sending them into his mouth scoop by scoop and looking at me timidly hahaha.

And maybe he is young [ pri 3 ]

His aiming a bit fail, his hands fail to coordinates.

His hand, which is holding the spoon, does not direct the spoon smoothly into the mouth.

Instead it will hit the lips, chin or the side of his mouth.

Making the area around his whole mouth to be covered with honey !

Each time that happens, I would tell him the bee will fly from outside his window to sting him to eat the money on his mouth.

He would blatantly believe it and rush to the toilet to wash up and den come back with alot of question AND ANOTHER BOWL OF HONEY.

HAHAHAHA, I totally cannot stand him LOL.

I remember there was once when the lesson has ended, He would bring out his toys, a transformer figurine.

And tell me santa clause gave it to him last year

Hey, Santa Clause dont exist.!

His reponse will be, Really, really really got santa clause one, if not my toy come from where?

Me: Ur parents bought them and put it into ur room, there is no santa clause in this world okay !

Him: If u dont believe me, its okay, you wont get any presents.

And my students really do believe that santa clause exist.

After 1 min of arguing with him, I realise that I can use santa clause to trick him.

Me: Ya, if u dont do my homework, santa clause will ignore u this year.

Him: Okok I do, If I all correct den I will get better presents right ?

Me: YES !

HOLY, I AM SO SMART. HAHAHA

BYE ALL

2009-09-20T18:49:00.002+08:00

V - POWER FTW!!

I like the shirt =D

Gideon, ur face can man.

BAH. I am so hungry.

My head hurts so bad.

Going back to sleep.

Do not disturb unless necessary.

haha, BYE ALL

2009-09-18T07:55:00.003+08:00

wooot..

I OFFICIALLY QUIT SMOKING !!!

Isnt that fine, isnt that great ?

I dont see a need to smoke,

I dont feel an urge to smoke anymore.

The more I smoke, the more disgusting I feel.

WA, I think this is the second biggest accomplish I made this year.

THE FIRST!!!

WAAA, secret man.

And, btw I just lose SGD20k.

OH, if u miss that,

SEE PPROPERLY!!!!

SINGAPORE TWENTY THOUSAND DOLLARS !!!

and oh yes, keeping ppl in suspense is my forte.

THE more you ask, the more I dowan to say.

My heart ache like mad.

DAMIT ASS HOLE.

Its definitely worth but I dunno why am I so forgetful.

AND MR ONG!

You really do change my mind about foose ball.

And I find it v funny when u ask me where are you going to put it when ur house is so big !

In front of ur piano !!

Yes beside ur fishtank dude.

I'm getting better,

I dint know DAVID can make so many funny sounds like me until today.

Not bad.

Like brother like brother.

hahaha.

AND mw, my RVF IS COMING RIGHT UP NEXT!

Forget bout that god dam civic, I'll get better cars next time.

AND
THANKS FOR ALL THAT U GUYS HAVE DONE!!

REALLY APPRECIATE it, you guys know who you are.

NOW I FEEL I AM SO WONDERFUL !!!!

GOOD NIGHTS. !

DRINK SOMEMORE NOT ONLY UR LIVER SPOIL, UR KIDNEY WILL SPOIL, UR THROAT WILL SPOIL, UR EVERYWHERE SPOIL, BUT U DONT DIE.

AND to somebody,

Fyi,

ITS TALENTINE.! =DD

2009-09-14T06:18:00.002+08:00

Totally random.

2009-09-14T05:52:00.003+08:00

FInally, I'm blogging. No pictures, just words .

Its a long time since I posted pictures.

Will post Pics ASAP.

Anyway, I just realise liquor is poison .

Poison to our body, even a lil amount is considered poison.

THat spoils our internal organs, pollute ur blood, and slow ur brain reaction.

LIKEWISE FOR SMOKING.

Just that drinking is more disasterous, except for the cancer part.

Nyways, JOHOR CHICKEN RICE gotta race to two times more expensive den a 3 dollar chicken rice in SG.

DUE TO THE INTELLIGENT, fresh and tender CHICKEN MEAT breeding in malayssia now.

It was reported that the Malaysian chicken farming and processing company Kee Song Brothers Poultry Industry, based in Johor, is breeding a special type of chickens. Their chickens are fed corn-soya bean mix laced with Cordyceps sinesis, a type of expensive Chinese herb, live in air-conditioned comfort with Mozart music piped-in.

Even though their cordyceps-fed chickens are retailing at more than 3-times the price of normal chickens, they are enjoying strong sales as more Singaporeans are sold to the idea of such health food.

IS THAT CRAZY !?

Nexxt time we'll have PIGS who learns maths, sleep on king size bed, and stays in a luxurious hotel.

DUCKS who eats ginseng as breakfast, spaghetti for lunch, Beef steak with wine for dinne, and pudding as dessert.

Totally cool right.

DAM I GOTTA EAT ONE OF THOSE NEXT TIME.

Btw, clubs in boat quay is open till 9AM, not 6am.

CRAZY！

さよなら

2009-09-11T10:17:00.001+08:00

Happy 23rd Bday To u JIE JIE !.

Though U might not be reading this.

but still. HAppy bday!

Stay pretty.

Stay cheerful =D

U have a special Bday like me. 911.

We're both terrorist ! hahaha

2009-09-05T09:34:00.007+08:00

After a few cups of drinks in BQ, I Finally went home. After reaching home, I went to 7-11 to buy coupon.

On the way back when turning into my house.

A VAN CAME OUT WHILE I WAS TURNING IN !!!

I knew it was going to bang, I was cornering !

Halfway through the corner I swear the VAN was like 1 centremetre away from me.

I change direction halfway through the corner, I went straight instead and was going over to the opposite direction. A car was coming straight at me, so, I change back to the correct lane.

Den, A car which was moving very fast was horning me from the back.

I Add oil, Add oil and add oil, Until finally I am a distance away from the car behind me.

Initially, I was scared.

I thought I was going to get bang.

After 5 seconds after that incident.

I got all so fed up.

BY that inconsiderate Van driver.

I stop my bike in the middle of the road, switch off my engine get off my bike and ask the dam fcuking uncle to get out of the van.

He die dowan get out, I open his door, switch off his engine.

He kept quiet.

First question : HOW MANY FCUKING RIDERS HAVE U KILLED ?

Uncle: I'm Sorry. I really never see.

Me: Sorry got use ah, u come down i drive ur van I bang u.

Me: I ride bike U drive van, u tell me u never see den can ah.

Me: shout at him non stop.

Car behind: Horn like faggot.

Walk behind, I pulled the driver out.

He nearly hoot me.

But think he no guts.

I ask him come judge. That ass ask me go police station.

I ask him go back.

Den he drive opposite pass us, He should have done that long ago, oso not alot car. -.-

Van Driver: Ah Di ah, wa kia eh lor pi li ka teng. Li ai kua wa eh kar mai. Ku char wa hua motor ma si hor taxi long.

Me: U dont say so much, you bang until me how. U can tahan everything anot.

Van Driver: Ah Di ah, Wa jin eh si bo kua tio li. Wa meng si bo kua tit tit kia. Wa kua tio li wa zam brake liao.

Me: U mai Ah Di left Ah Di right. Now u wan to bang until me, I never siam u think I bo tai ji ah. U fcuking cb.

Van Driver: Okay wa ka li kong pai sei, Wa chut lai tan jia nia.

Me: Li ai jia, wa bin jia ah. Li long tio wa, Wa eh Bei Bu Li QI AH ?

Van Driver: Okay, Ji zhun si bo tai ji, Wa mai wu simi tai ji. Wa ka li kong pai sei. [ very sorry ]

Me: AIya, U KNN LA, U drive, drive carefully la. Cannot see properly dont drive la, U go 'earn ur eat', I go sleep my sleep. U BETTER open ur eyes wider when driving.

WENT OFF~

After reaching home, I just realise he is my father fren......

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

My dad is going to confront me very very very very very soon.

Anyway he is at fault. I am just standing up for all drivers/riders on the road.

DRIVERS PLEASE OPEN UR EYES BIGGER.

IF U ARE DRUNK , DONT DRIVE.

IF U ARE TIRED, DONT DRIVE.

IF U ARE ANGRY, DONT DRIVE.

IF U ARE TALKING ON THE PHONE, DONT DRIVE.

EVEN if u are the world No 1 racer or wadever.

PLEASE BE CONSIDERATE.

I am not trying to bias.

BUT ALL RIDERS please ride carefully. IF ANY CAr is at fault, DONT hesitate to confront them.

THey are practically protected by a dam shell, we are protected by air. SWeeet.

SO,

FCUK THEIR ASS AND MAKE SURE U TEACH THEM A LESSON.

ALSO, RIDE CAREFULLY

BEFORE U PUT THE BLAME ON OTHERS.

I think I'm fcuking lucky.

Maybe the amulet everyone give me got use one haha.

I DONT WANNA KEEP TRYING MY LUCK.

I WANNA DRIVE A CAR AND BANG TAXI !!!!

Anyway, H Bday, CHEW ! =D
GoodNights

2009-09-04T03:19:00.004+08:00

I'm so in love with pool that I have been playing pool almost every single day.
But all that bending down to shoot the ball is making my neck ache.

And I'm still v noob at it. One day I will win david hahs.

Anyway, Happy Bday to you .

I also happened to chance upon this sometime back.

REASONS WHY WE SHOULDNT POST OUR PICTURES ON BLOGGER

Scary ya ?

Well, I will refrain from posting pics of myself in case I became a panda or something else.

2009-08-30T20:17:00.000+08:00

2009-08-30T20:12:00.002+08:00

2009-08-25T06:06:00.001+08:00

As always, I dont wanna go up liao la.

Think I haven been taking care of my hand. Now, INFECTION.

WHole hand. Dam it, v pain.

Giddy, I THRASH U.

And thanks, u ask me buy that god dam plaster look alike no use at all can !?

Now all infection. HOW !?

Wan kena thrash by me again anot !!!???

hmmm, tired.

And dad, U were rude just now.

NIGHTS.

2009-08-20T02:21:00.010+08:00

Finally, I'm left with last paper. I'm alr in holiday mood now.

I'm so going to play through this holiday. And do a lot of things hehehe.

I am going to act secretive.

Hopefully, ESSR wont be that hard.

ANd and, all u guys tired of my rotting blog.

Asking when is this clown gonna update.

WHoever that is feeling bored has came to the right place =D

I saw some came across some commercials that I find it very creative and is outrageously FUNNY !!!!

And the next one is not a commercial. Its a prank hahaha.

And One LAST super CUTE COMMERCIAL !!! MY FAVOURITE.

Save the best things for the last yea hahaha.

INTRODUCING........

THE BABY SKATERS !!

I WAN THEM ALL TO BE MY BABY !!!

SUPER CUTE RIGHHHHHT !!!

THEIR FACE LIKE CAN PINCH ONE HEHEHEHE.

I wan I wan all of them !!!!

AFTER FUNNY COMMERCIALS.

hERE are the jokes I have not posted for a long time mon my blog :

Teacher: If I give you two rabbits and two rabbits and another two rabbits, how many rabbits have you got?
Paddy: Seven!

Teacher: No, listen carefully again. If I give you two rabbits and two rabbits and another two rabbits, how many rabbits have you got?
Paddy: Seven!

Teacher: Let’s try this another way. If I give you two apples and two apples and another two apples, how many apples have you got?
Paddy: Six.

Teacher: Good. Now if I give you two rabbits and two rabbits and another two rabbits, how many rabbits have you got?
Paddy: Seven!

Teacher: How on earth do you work out that three lots of two rabbits is seven?
Paddy: I’ve already got one rabbit at home now!

~~~~~

A jobless man applied for the position of ‘office boy’ at Microsoft.

The HR manager interviewed him, then a test: clean the floor. “You are engaged,” he said, give me your e-mail address, and I’ll send you the application to fill, as well as when you will start.

The man replied, ” I don’t have a computer, neither an email” I’m sorry, said the HR manager, if you don’t have an email, that means you do not exist. And who doesn’t exist, cannot have the job.

The man left with no hope at all. He didn’t know what to do, with only $10 US in his pocket. He then decided to go to the supermarket and buy a 10 Kg tomato crate. He then sold the tomatoes in a door-to-door round. In less than two hours, He succeeded to double his capital. He repeated the operation three times, and returned home with $60 US. The man realized that he can survive by this way, and started to go everyday earlier, and return late.

Thus, his money doubles or triples every day. Shortly later, he bought a cart, then a truck, and then he had his own fleet of delivery vehicles. 5 years later, the man is one of the biggest food retailers in the U.S. He started to plan his family’s future, and decided to have a life insurance. He called an insurance broker, and chooses a protection plan. When the conversation was concluded, the broker asked him his email. The man replied: ‘ I don’t have an email’.

The broker replied curiously, “You don’t have an email, and yet have succeeded to build an empire. Do you imagine what you could have been if you had an email?”

The man thought for a while, and replied: “An office boy at Microsoft!”

~~~~~

Facts You Might Not Know !!

The truth about pigs:

We often think that pigs are lazy, dirty, and STUPID !

Now read this :

The only truth about pigs is that they weigh very fast !

A baby pig, or piglet, weighs about 1.5 kilograms at birth and will double its weight in just 7 days.

Weaning occurs at three months of age, but young pigs continue to live with their mothers. Two or more sows usually join together in an extended family.

'Pigs are very clean animals.' They keep their toilets far from their living or eating area. Even piglets only a few hours old will leave the nest to relieve themselves.

A baby pig, or piglet, weighs about 1.5 kilograms at birth and will double its weight in just 7 days.

Weaning occurs at three months of age, but young pigs continue to live with their mothers. Two or more sows usually join together in an extended family.

Pigs are very clean animals. They keep their toilets far from their living or eating area. Even piglets only a few hours old will leave the nest to relieve themselves.

Pigs are very intelligent and learn quickly. They pick up tricks faster than dogs. Pigs rank #4 in animal intelligence behind chimpanzees, dolphins and elephants. Piglets learn their names by two to three weeks of age and respond when called.

Pigs are much more tolerant of cold than heat. Pigs have no sweat glands, so they can't sweat. They roll around in the mud to cool their skin. The layer of dried mud protects their skin from the sun. If available, pigs, who are great swimmers, prefer water to mud.

Some pigs have straight and some have curly tails.

Pigs are very social animals. They form close bonds with each other and other species. Pigs enjoy close contact and will lie close together when resting. Pigs use their grunts to communicate with each other.

So, the next time u call anyone a pig. U are actually praising them =DD

Next are interesting facts about snails !

The largest land snail ever found was 15 inches long and weighed 2 pounds! [WAA BIGGER DEN ANACONDA!] =X

Snails' bodies produce a thick slime. Because of this slime, they can Crawl across the edge of a razor and not get hurt.

Some snails have been known to live up to 15 years.[very long meh]

Snails are hermaphrodites which means that they have both male and female reproductive organs. [LOL, mate with themself]

Snails usually travel in irregular paths, often traveling in a circle. [ Stupid or wad ]

Snails reply mainly on their sense of touch and smell when finding food because they have very poor eyesight. [Wear specs la!]

Snails cannot hear. [Oso nobody will talk to snails]

Snails can retract one or both of their tentacles at a time.[Action lor]

Because of the suction created by their slime, a snail can crawl upside down.[lizard, cockroach and ants oso can, v special meh]

Snails are nocturnal animals which means they are more active at night.[I'm a snail]

Garden Snails mainly eat garden plants and vegetables, but they will also eat decaying plants and soil. [No money buy food meh, I treat u dinner lo]

The fastest snails are the speckled garden snails which can move up to 55 yards per hour compared 23 inches per hour of most other land snails. [ IS KAN PUA SLOW CAN ]

Garden snails hibernate during the winter and live on their stored fat. [store fats in their house on the back]

Garden snails breathe with lungs. [I oso]

Garden snails evolved from sea snails about 600 million years ago. [wa, really not]

The garden snail is cooked and eaten as a delicacy called escargot [ YUCKS ]

May 24th is National Escargot Day [ I am definitely not getting myself involved ]

2009-08-16T22:03:00.001+08:00

Hooligans Post

2009-08-11T05:52:00.003+08:00

First of all , this post is dedicated to all hooligans in Singapore.

Note, I used the word 'Hooligans' instead of gangster.

If u do not know the diffference.

Go check out the dictionary.

Theres a lot of gangsters/mafia in the world.

In Singapore?

Maybe not.

Like the post title suggest, I guess I need not elaborate further.

Its self explanatory.

Before u continue,

This 'MIGHT' be a long post, depending on how u look at it.

And I believe it will make absolute sense to everyone who reads it.

This is something I learn quite sometime ago.

However for wadever reasons I will not state and it doesnt matters,

NOW I will share it with everyone.

And 'HOPEFULLY' it would educate most of my 'target market segment'

Before I begin, there is something that needs to be explained

even it might not be scientifically proven, but hopefully u would understand the meaning within.

You have probably heard the idea that everything happens for a reason. It is a great example of what can be called "useful lies."

Everything happens for a reason? What nonsense! On the other hand, what a great idea! Whatever your religious or philosophical background, this is a belief that you can use, even if it isn't true.

There is no way to prove that everything happens for a reason. In fact, when you think about some of the truly terrible things that happen to people, it seems almost rude to even suggest it at times. But as a personal belief, it can do WONDERS for your outlook on life.

For example, suppose you lost your job. There must be a reason, so you start looking for one. Soon you find your "true purpose" in life, get a better job, and have more happiness. Without the belief that things happen for a reason, people sometimes are just devastated by such "bad luck," and do nothing to better their lives, right?

If u believe that wadever negative things that happens to you, on ur life, ur spouse BECAUSE OF BAD LUCK.

YOU WILL NEVER IMPROVE. !

Lying To Children (And Ourselves)

Notice that I put "true purpose" in quotation marks above. Why? Because this is another idea that may be nonsense, but is useful. It gives life more meaning, and so may lead to more happiness. It is like telling a child that he can be anything he wants to be. What nonsense!

This is easily proven false. I won't even give examples here, because you can think of many reasons why some people will never be able to do some things. On the other hand, the general idea can be very motivating. If a child is told instead that there are only some things she can do, she'll likely start ruling out many of the things she really might be able to do.

BELIEVE IT OR NOT

The belief can be false and still work,but even more interesting is the fact that it doesn't even have to be a belief. In other words, you may actually think that the idea "anything is possible" is nonsense, and yet still use it. Think of it as an "operating principle." Act as though anything is possible and you'll find more possibilities in life than if act on more skeptical principles.

I recently read a true story about Bill Harris, the founder of the Centerpointe Institute, one of the bigger online distributors of motivational CDs. When his company was young, he was sued for a million dollars. Although the lawsuit was frivolous, it was going to take a lot of money to defend his company - money he didn't have. Did this happen for some higher reason? I doubt it.

Harris, however, seems to believe that everything happens for a reason, or at least he acts as if this is true. As a result, his reaction was to sit down and list sixty possible benefits of being sued, starting with "I can learn about the legal system." He says that every one of the benefits on his list came true, and today the company is bigger and better than ever. That's the power of a good idea.

You can use good ideas like good tools. Pick them up and set them down (and pick up a better one) as necessary. You don't have to cling to them as some revealed "truth" to get the value. But if you really do believe that everything happens for a reason, and my concept of "useful lies" has shaken your faith, just assume that this has happened for some good reason.

These are what I call "useful lies." It isn't even about whether they are true or not (maybe it's actually true that everything happens for a reason). These kinds of beliefs are generally impossible to prove (hence the designation of "lies"), and often blatantly silly, but they organize one's thinking in a way that leads to more productive outcomes. If you believe that you were "meant" to be a writer, for example, you won't get discouraged from that writing career as easily as someone who just "gives it a try."

Let me state another example in layman terms that happen during our daily life,

Lets assume one fine afternoon, u are feeling very bored.

U happen to be lying on ur bed and staring at the ceiling.

And suddenly ur phone rings.

U saw a msg from ur bf/gf/best friend.

'HEY WAD U DOING'?

Reply: Doing nothing

Have u ever asked why ?!

First of all, u are doing something.

Lying on ur bed and staring at the ceiling is doing something.

EVEN when u are asleep u are doing something.

And obviously, u are sleeping.

That is why the word is created in the first place.

AND AGAIN, the reason is stated right from the start.

Why are u 'doing nothing' as u proclaim it to be though u are lying on ur bed and staring at the ceiling.

The reason is plainly because U ARE BORED !!!

Do u get it now ????

The next part of today's post I'm gonna touch on is THE SIX NEEDS OF HUMAN ! [ALL OF THEM ARE IMPORTANT AND CRUCIAL IN SHAPING A PERSON IN HIS LIFE] ITS PROVEN !!!

To summarise,

1.Certainty/Comfort.
We all want comfort. And much of this comfort comes from certainty. Of course there is no ABSOLUTE certainty, but we want certainty the car will start, the water will flow from the tap when we turn it on and the currency we use will hold its value. [Self Explanatory]

2.Variety.
At the same time we want certainty, we also crave variety. Paradoxically, there needs to be enough UNcertainty to provide spice and adventure in our lives. [Do u wanna go to school/work, go back home finish up ur assignments, go to sleep and repeat it the next day FOR LIFE???]

3.Significance.
Deep down, we all want to be important. We want our life to have meaning and significance. I can imagine no worse a death than to think my life didn't matter. [ AND THIS IS THE POINT I WANNA TOUCH ON TODAY, WILL ELABORATE FURTHER LATER]

4.Connection/Love.
It would be hard to argue against the need for love. We want to feel part of a community. We want to be cared for and cared about. [Self Explanatory]

5.Growth.
There could be some people who say they don't want to grow, but I think they're simply fearful of doing so—or perhaps NOT doing so. To become better, to improve our skills, to stretch and excel may be more evident in some than others, but it's there. [eg, do u feel good when u teach ur lil siblings something they do not know]

6.Contribution.
The desire to contribute something of value—to help others, to make the world a better place than we found it is in all of us. [eg, do u feel good when u give 10 dollars to a beggar without limbs]

Now that u know all the six 'NEEDS' [not wants] of a human,,

Do take sometime to process it.

I can finally go straight to the point

Question: WHY DO some people choose to be a hooligan den to live their lives to be a successful someone.?

ANSWER: SIGNIFICANCE/IMPORTANCE.

They wanna feel important, they wanna let people know that they exist,

They wanna feel significant 'RIGHT AWAY'

Remember 'RIGHT AWAY' is the key word here.

First and foremost, ask urself.

How will or how can someone make themself significant or important to others ?

Some of the examples:

Becoming a super famous and rich man,

Becoming a famous singer,

a famous dancer/ beat boxer, artist, lawyer, doctor, entrupreuner, and so on.....

Again, look again at all the examples I have just listed.

All of them TAKES TIME TO fulfill.

And some people wants it right away.

They want it to be significant at a younger age and sacrifice/ruin their future for it.

Lets say someone takes a GUN and point it at ur head.

IMMeDIateLY, THAT someone becomes significant in ur life.

AM I right ?

Obviously, YES.

Its a gun he is holding, its ur head he is pointing the gun at,

SO, does that explains why do some people wants to be a hooligans instead of creating, shaping their future into something brighht, something of value, something their family would be proud of .

In conclusion,

this choice is made by the stupidest person in the world.

If anyone who can understand my point will agree with me.

I GUESS I DO NOT HAVE TO ELABORATE FURTHER.

Up till this point if u still do not understand I do not know what to say.

But to tell u, U have wasted 15 min of ur life reading this dumbass useless post. =D

And after spending one hour of my time typing this, I really hope readers of this post will understand.

And hopefull it does benefit u in someway or another.

TATA SIS AND BROS.

All comments would be entertained,

good or bad =D

2009-08-10T12:15:00.000+08:00

I'm SUper angry with blogspot. I wan to delete this blog alr.

So many days alr i still cant post pictures.

anyway had fun ytd at gid house food party. LOL.

CHef on board !!!

2009-08-05T20:46:00.001+08:00

Why cant I post pictures.

I got something super nice to share with all of u !!!

Gaaa, post tmr or wad when this stupid blogger decides to let me post.

I'm gonna change my blogskin soon.

I'm off to prawning =D

2009-07-30T21:11:00.000+08:00

LIKE FINALLY, I FUCKING BLOG.

Well, yesterday was hell for me.

I study for the dam whole night for test.

And WHat I study didnt came out.

I dont know how to explain how unlucky I am.

For my Jap skid, Was postpon eto next week.

So nice of the teacher.

anyway, last night study until wan to cry,

went out for supper for a while

and 'someone' TELL me something very interesting.

Someone is use because identity should be kept confidential as request.

Really very interesting....

And den tmr I got test again.

All are retest.

All because I dint go to sch last week. Dam it.

I gonna stop all my nonsense and start studying alr.

eXAMS IN LESS DEN TWO WEEKS.

BUT ANYWAY I AM SO GONNA DROWN MYSELF WITH LIQUOR THIS WEEKEND. !!!!

On a side note.

Dragonica is fun ! =D

I think I'll start to isolate myself and get hook on to it very soon

BLAR BLAR BLAR.

2009-07-25T05:05:00.009+08:00

Its like a storybook, We wrote together.

~~~

Now that u throw the book away,

I cannot find it anywhere.

2009-07-18T17:41:00.014+08:00

Dont say what u cannot do.

And dont tua my brother.

Tts the last time.

You sonnawagun.

~~~~~~~~~

To All Riders :

PLEASE
Take 10min to watch this video FULLY.

7 Min 44seconds

And

9 Min Mark exclusively

Ride with caution !

2009-07-17T16:25:00.012+08:00

HERE ARE ALL THE DISNEY PICTURES.

Not all are psoted, because its simply too much. I see until blur oso. HAHA

FInally post everything liao. Phew

I am off, tata.

2009-07-16T05:10:00.003+08:00

Relationships problems are the only problem that i cannot cope with .
tata

so late alr, dunno wan slp anot. Tmr sch at 8 .

Debarment zone.

sAD.

btw i will never forget ahaha, U told me and i will remember =D

I never needed ***

Life is Stupid

2009-07-13T23:30:00.003+08:00

Life is about sufferrings.

Its just an illusion that we have created and live in.

Its a crap trap god or whoever nonsense ass i dont care that has created for us.

Theres another term for 'life' where ur souls lives forever.

Life is just a phase for ur soul to go through.

Its just a game.
Part of a game.

U have to abandon ur human body sooner or later anyway.

No matter how much fun I had,

How much sufferrings I went through to get wad I want,

How Insane I was,

How orderly I try to be.

No matter how well or how poor u fair in life.

Its still meaningless.

U have to die anyway.

What do we live for exactly ?

2009-07-13T06:08:00.013+08:00

THESES ARE THE PHOTOS ON THE 2ND 3RD DAY of hong kong trip.

From shen zhen back to SKY TERRACE !!!

Took a special train up there.

Its super super super high up.

My ears are blocked and i feel giddy on the way up !!!

Darn.

SO HIGH.

BUT NICE. =D

DISNEYLAND PHOTOS COMING UP RIGHT NEXT.

THATS ALL FOR NOW

More coming soonn....

I am hella confused now.

Can someone invent a word to describe how I feel now.

'My hand hurts,

Swollen big time.'

Good nights folks,

I'm turning in.

ps: a man dont go back on his word. anyway If u wanna take back wad u said, its ur loss, not mine.

Hong Kong

2009-07-11T16:38:00.010+08:00

LEGENDARY PIGEON MEAT !

ate it unwillingly

Super Nice noodle

This thing taste dam dam dam delicious

Strawberry

The middle one is mine =D

I keep feeding this dog

Wear dress go BBQ HAHAHA

Not nice to smoke at all

This dog very the cute !

First flight

of my life

Finally I received all the Hong Kong Pictures.

Its helloads of pictures I dunno how am I gonna upload them to my blog.

Blogspot should come up with a function to upload like 100 pictures at a time.

Or like upload every pictures in a paticular folder u selected.

THat will make blogspot the biggest host for bloggers.

Well, I think I upload a few first.

Den when I am free I will upload the rest.

STAY TUNE!

After thorough analysing and observation.

I realise that miscommunication often is cause when the other party

has already cast a death penalty to you

even before u speak or act.

Join me in hell

2009-07-08T02:06:00.005+08:00

I AM ONE FCUKING LUCKY GUY !

THANKS DIXON !

its me who aint as good.

but seriously I just dont like the way its done.
And I dunno how to put it to u

I am
Sorry

2009-07-07T16:35:00.009+08:00

I am tired, SLept at about 7am today. And woke up at 11am. Den mess up Law project.

We were late for class for half an hour. Den report not printed.

I dunno wad to say for presentation.

THings were totally mess up correct alr.

But some last min work save the day.

N1 Jason.

Thanks to all classmates who lend us pen, laptop, thumbdrive ......

The lucky cant see that its last min work.

YOUR HONOUR, WITH ALL DUE RESPECT.

I WANT TO FCUK YOU!

anyway I am freaking tired.

GOing to tuition now. All the way to 9pm.

NO CHOICE ! I WAN MY CAR LICENSE.

2-3months ++ from now.

Hopefully before my bday.

Becauuse before ur bday is impossible. =(

New bike is coming =D

Hopefully nth goes wrong tmr.

And
Just one last thing alr said,
but not yet accomplished..................................

NOW GET OUT !

2009-07-05T08:34:00.012+08:00

Plz take care my bros and sis.

I know everyone is having a hard time,

I will be there.

Plz sleep well QS.

Two days since u last slept.

Anyway,

I will visit u on tuesday.

Its impossible,

but I still wish u come back........

I haven been sleeping in peace....

2009-07-03T18:03:00.003+08:00

I OFFICIALLY KENA PLUCK.!

FCUKING BORING

I JUST FEEL LIKE EATING SOMETHING REALLY NICE NOW

2009-07-03T13:45:00.003+08:00

MY BIKE IS READY !!!!!!!!!

I FCUKING MISS MY BIKE.

I GONNA TAKE IT BACK LATER.

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NEW MONTH NEW BIKE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^_^

2009-07-03T02:43:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night went to OCC to play pool with KC and RS.

Den went to dam in the evening watch sunset haha.

V long nv ride bike liao sia !

Den to NP.

Den saw those indians again.

Den went to drink at night.

Evan u drunkard !!

lyoann, Jason red like tomato.

LOL.

Dont open so many bottles next time alr k.

SO little ppl.

Hmms anyways.

Thought thru a lot of things.

Den, well thanks baby for being so understanding.

In the morning I woke up reading those msg I really v happy. <3

Anw, I got a lot of photos to post one!

BUT DEN HOR

Until NOW MY HONG KONG PICTURES I STILL HAVEN RECEIVED. !

2009-07-01T00:53:00.002+08:00

Hallucination is all that I believe.

Although I try to act polite when u guys said its him.

But i fcuking dont believe in this kind of thing.

Maybe something is starting to change my idea of the other world.

Now its time I pull myself and start believing on my own beliefs

One word,

Hallucination,

I only believe things that have evidence to back it up.

To hell with all the nonsense crap.

Anyway

Today, Z.H. [not myself] said sth.

I'm quite sadden by it.

I hope that impression dint change.

Maybe my parents were right.

My words can never win the society.

In anycase.

I prove it wrong to everyone who despise.

I'll prove it to all of you.

Society is a big word.

SO IS MY NAME!

MARK MY WORDS.

2009-06-30T06:05:00.003+08:00

Quite long nv blog alr.

Let me type something today .

Had been sleeping in the morning lately.

Due to whatsoever reason is not important.

But if this carries on I gonna die soon.

Been meeting up with QS and co almost every day.

Transformer Is A long and nice show though I dint quite concentrate on it.

Drag me to hell is a knn scary show but nice oso.

Both is worth ur money =DD

I forgot and am lazy to think about what I have did on other days.

So I am just gonna mention today's happenings.

Without my BIKE, I AM SO NOT USE TO IT !!!!!!!

I go where also take cab.

TAKE UNTIL I BROKE LA FCUK.

Its super funny, when i take a cab from yishun [700+] to yishun [800+]

It cost me freeaking about 9 dollars !!!

Thanks ah QS for offering to fetch me to tuition.

But nvm ah, dowan to trouble you.

After tuition, i from 200+ walk to 123.

Because It was not too far and I am afraid that the cab meter gonna play a prank on me again.

Was suppose to have another tuition but I cancelled it.

Saw Cass and co at 123 so sit down with them and chat a bit.

SHortly QS and co came,

ate there den........................................

I am sorry I ps u again!

Den went to town with Alvin to buy that Victoria Secrets Perfume.

Is so freaking hard to find,

CK tanks, Taka, Lucky Plaza ALL DONT HAVE !

In the end.....................

Still dint find it.

SO forget it, Dunno wad he bought in the end for his gf.

But 49 dollars.

V good bf, I like.

Run until town walk so many place just to buy one freaking thing.

Arbo u be my bf wan anot.

okay lame,

Den chat a bit.

DEn he send me back home.

To have my dinner.

ORDER FROM MOMMY !

Ok I ate a bit den ran out again.

Because QS U ACT VERY FAST ONE EH.

I said I reach home, u still at woodlands,

haven 15 min reach my hus downstairs.!!!

Ok forget it I literally drank the whole bowl of macoroni 'dunno how to spell it'
IN TEN SECONDS.

Den I went down feeling 'CHOKED'

Went to VIVO,

Den Mount Faber.

Like finallly!!!

I say so long alr finally we go.

Den Woodlands,

Den L4D !!

Although lose a few match,

But overall,

WE,

OWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNEEEEE=DDDDDDD

LONG DAY UH ?

GOOD NIGHTS EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-27T05:22:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BDAY ALENE POH !!!!!!!!!!!!

=DDD

My wants seems to be hibernating. I will be completing them starting today. And den remove them one by one.

You will always be remembered

2009-06-26T15:42:00.004+08:00

Was just talking about it last night.

I dunno why, but I just keep getting reminded.

I think a series of link-ed events happen as a warning before.

Its a goodbye gift.

However to some, its just a temporary gift.

To me, the gift is with u forever.

Its with u, in ur hearts and in our hearts.

Everywhere I go, I think of you.

EVERYWHERE.!

Even my house, right now.

Like what KC mention.

Its too cruel a thing to accept.

The deadliest msg I can ever received.

The coldest facial expression I can ever see.

Actually I regret.

I regret something I dont dare to admit.

The most cruel thing I ever encountered in my life,

is life...

Moving on is one thing.

Forgetting you is another.

2009-06-25T03:04:00.005+08:00

I am back to Singapore from Hong Kong.

I am not sick so I guess I can still run around freely.

Hopefully I dint get H1N1 and get a lot of ppl infected with it.

The trip was fun.

Though many things happen in between but I chose to ignore.

Not like me..

Hmmm, nyways I will post the pictures up when I have time. Its dammit loads of photos.

Did quite a lot of things.

And ate quite a lot of things.

First time taking a plane,

Thanks Auntie Joyce.

First day, went BBQ and fishing at this 'bottle tree park' look alike place.

Feed dogs den went to shopping centre.

Cigg there aint cheap oso.

Cost about SGD8 a packet. GOSH.

Went to shen zhen on the 2nd day.
Ate PIGEON !!!
And I got molested.
Well, DOnt wanna elaborate. HAA

Shop on the 3rd day.
Nth to shop oso.

All of the things is like those from bugis street.
And Is not cheap at all.

Disneyland on fourth day,

Bought a few disney shirt for myself and is dam big.
Alene u know how to see one anot !?
Anyway,
the fireworks were awesome.

FIFth day back to SG.

Thank you for everything Auntie Joyce.

And I really feel sorry for you.

Hope U wont be too negative with life.

All the best,

Lastly, may all ur wish and hope come true.

Darn screw up today.

Was busily cancelling all my tuition and meet up.
SORRY ALVIN, hope u understand.

And Happy Bday to u Renee.

Balrin, dont worry !
I love you lol.

THANKS TO QI SHENG.
Giddy.
Alene
THanks everyone.

Hectic day tmr.

I have faith in you,

I value your needs and wants,

and I respect your time.

I am tired,

Goodnights FRENS, rest well.

2009-06-19T00:51:00.004+08:00

My love, I have tried with all my being

to grasp a form comparable to thine own,

but nothing seems worthy,

I know now why Shakespeare could not compare his love to a summer’s day.

It would be a crime to denounce the beauty of such a creature,

to simply cast away the precision

God had placed in forging you.

Each facet of your being

whether it physical or spiritualis an ensnarement

from which there is no release.

But I do not wish release.

I wish to stay entrapped forever.

With you for all eternity.

Our hearts, always as one.

I'll Miss You,

Farewell,

My Princess,

With Love.

2009-06-15T20:32:00.005+08:00

15th June.

Met up QS and KC for lunch den to buy something.

As I have an very important task that day.

Went to watch movie with bb.

Its like the whole Singapore only got one timing.

All the cinemas screen the show at 5pm ++

Other den that its some weird timing like midnight or something.

Nyway, caught I love you, man.

At 4pm I was still in lavender.

Not yet prepared or wadever.

And the show starts at 5.15pm.

Afraid that there might be no seats left by the time I reach there and purchase the movie tickets.

QS fetch me home and KC help me to book the tickets online when I go to bath =D

Thanks to you two.

The show is Funny =D

But most of the attention is not paid to the movie.

Because theres a special force beside me. haha.

Had pastamania den off to "Can Reach Park".

To do a very important task.

Chit chat there with BB

And I said I gonna show her a magic.

And she doesnt believe it.

Not gonna tell u guys wad magic was that.

Over there I was accused and threaten REPEATEDLY!

Was threaten to act like a spiderman

Ask me to climb a tree !!

Accused of my heart beating v fast.

Accused that I think that u will say Y** hor, so I am not worrying hor.

Threaten me hor !!!

Cute HOR !?

After all the threatening and accusing.

I send her back to yishun to meeet her frens.

Upon reaching the place.
I merely Throttle a bit and stop den purposely brake for a few times ONLY.

THEN I GOT THREATEN AGAIN.

You make me feel like stupid yesterday la !!

But den I still love you. =D

But den ultimately U still told me the beautiful word. So its alright.! =D

A gentle word like a spark of light,

Just wanna tell you this bb,

It's YOU that makes me whole

There is no corner, no dark place,YOUR LOVE cannot fill

And if the world starts causing waves,It's your devotion that makes them still

And yes you always speak to me,In sweet honesty and truth

Your caring heart keeps out the rain,

YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof

So thank you my Love for being there, For supporting me, my life

I'll do the same for you, you know,

My Cutest Wife, Smartest Lady. =D

Blogger just dont allow me to upload pictures now.

I will upload the pictures maybe tmr or wad.

2009-06-11T15:33:00.002+08:00

The times we had together.

No matter what is the reason for not fighting on till the last breath

Or if u had already tried ur best.

I am still proud of you.

I am still grateful for all the things u had done for me.

All the helps I need.

U was seldom not there for me.

The nights we spend together

The fun we had,

The secrets we shared.

Life is like a short journey.

Whether u did ur best or not u will reach ur destination to another level.

And bro I am proud that u did ur best.

And I am proud that u were once my bro.

The only regrets I had is not agreeing to drink ur blood that day.

Well, but deep down u all already my blood related brother.

I can feel that u are watching over me/us.

I can feel it. U are in a safe and better place.

You told me that.

Rest well brother.

2009-06-09T20:13:00.002+08:00

Brother, REST IN PEACE.

I KNOW YOU ARE IN A BETTER PLACE NOW.

I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU.

THursday night !

2009-06-05T15:26:00.004+08:00

So lame, self skidded on a pile of thick sand.

Sprain my arm leg and back

and a minor cut on my feet and hand.

But thats not the point.

My pitiful bike..

Its like ur wife one side of the face give ppl pour acid.

SIGH!

Anyway to everyone riding bike:
This is true,
Tested and proven by whoever nonsense name I dunno

You are most likely to have a motorbike accident less than 10 km from your home and in the first 12 minutes of your ride.

In one study of fatal accidents, 41% of the time the motorcyclist ran off the road, 18% either the motorcyclist or another vehicle ignored a traffic control, 11% were head-on collisions, 8% a car turned in front of a motorcycle and 7% a motorcycle went down in a roadway 2 . This study in particular hints that riders are more responsible for their own safety than is generally accepted.

Chopper-type (cruiser) motorcycles are more likely to be involved in an accident.

Experience is choosing an appropriate line is an important skill

You are more likely to have an accident in the first six months or during your second year of motorcycling.

Fast, smooth and safe cornering is a vital skill which should be learnt at a bike school or race track

Anyway, I went to gym yesterday and my shoulders and arms are aching now.

And I hurt my back and I cant apply medical oil.

BECAUSE MY HAND CANNOT REACH MY BACK DUE TO THE ACHING !!!

Dam forget it.

I am quite tired. Guess I go have a nap first =D

LAST BUT NOT LEAST.

OTHER DEN MY FRENS FATHERS WHO ARE TAXI DRIVERS.

THE other groups of taxi drivers who like to speed, dont like to signal, dont like to see mirror dont give a dam to other ppl life when driving can jolly well GO FUCK OFF AND GO AND DIE.

One more time, one more taxi driver fcuking pua stunt on the road I will fucking smash ur window.

SAYO.

LoNg Live fellow riders.

AND ALVIN INDIRECTLY SAID HE MISS ME :

[4:11:25 PM] Alvin ong: not sure

[4:11:28 PM] Alvin ong: maybe going skating

[4:11:31 PM] Alvin ong: or relax

[4:11:35 PM] Alvin ong: you want to come bo

[4:11:41 PM] Alvin ong: si bei long bo see you leh

[4:11:45 PM] Alvin ong: i want to see you okay anot

YES YES YES 100KG LOAD OFF.!

2009-06-04T18:40:00.004+08:00

Ima cheater..

CHEATER

I Practise like mad.

This is just one small part....

U think he cute ar ?

He will make ur life miserable.

Red packet from vampires. Lucky only 10 dollar .

Finally, the hardest day of the week is over !!

Seriously I hate thursday.

I always hate thursday.

Now that my school squeeze 3 test papers on thursday it made me hate thursday even more!

I cannot imagine me mugging suddenly and realise I dunno anything.

I think next time they should first day of school straight away give test.

I think I will score the highest in class lol.

Anyway, those jap characters are so hard to memorize.

Because of the limited time I have to study for my jap test.

I cheated =X

Well, just a lil bit.

Hopefully I'll pass the test.

And the freaking LTA came too slow.

I alr paid the fine den they send me the letter.

BYE BYE MARKETING MANAGEMENT

BYE BYE BUSINESS LAW

Oh ya, tmr test again !!!

Retail studies.

Faint faint faint.

I am go gonna enjoy myself during the weekends. AHAHA

2009-06-02T20:06:00.001+08:00

Weets. I just happen to chance upon this video on youtube,

I forgot how.

But u guys know the song

"If I were a Boy" by Beyonce ?

I found this If I were a girl by some caucasian and I find it very good lol.

His voice very nice.

And well tried MV made by himself. And one of his friends.

Overall its cool.

I love him.

GUess I got influence by Dixon.

I gotta stop looking at guys ! lol.

2009-06-01T22:16:00.004+08:00

I watch S factor today, dint watch the entire thing, just a few epidsodes.

I think the whole show is about those girls bitching each other behind their backs.

I enjoyed it, however I can imagine those being bitched at and sabotaged.

I really pity them lol.

Its entertaining to us, viewers.

But saddening to those.

However I love the part where they bitch INFRONT OF EACH OTHER.

Its cool I think LOL.

Girls always have the guts to this among girls as they grew mature.

ANyway, I think I gotta cut down on my monthly expenses.

I am dead sure I spend over 1k this month.

DAMIT.

Nuff of all that,
Just back from gym. I am dead beat.

THis hectic week:

Japanese Test [ I gonna suffer ]

Business LAW !!!

Marketing Management -.-

And more gym.

Currently undergoing some serious family issue.

Well, dont really feel like talking about it to anyone.

That explains why I update my blog less often.

I just dont have the mood.

With so many test and work packed.

I dont have the time.

Maybe its good to keep myself busy too =)

Anyway, I am going to francis house now den ltr to study !

YAY NO BUSINESS LAW TUTORIAL TMR !

And SIssy I hope u will remain happy and lively as you always were.

To whoever it is.

R.I.P

TAKECARE EVERYONE!

Very Touching

2009-05-31T04:31:00.007+08:00

Comparisons are easily done Once you've had a taste of perfection Like an apple hanging from the tree I picked the ripest one I still got the seed You said move on Where do I go I guess second best Is all i will know Cause when I am with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What would you do ifYou were the one Who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into your eyesYou're like an indian summer In the middle of a winter Like a hard candy with a surprise center How do I get better Once I've had the best You said there's Tons of fish in the water So the water I will test He kissed my lips I taste ur mouth He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you Thinking of you wad you would do if You were the one who was spending the night Oh I wish that I was Looking into your eyes You're the best And yes I do regret How I could let myself Let you go Now the lesson's learnt I touch it I was burned I think you should know Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What you would do if You were the one who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into ur eyes Looking into ur eyes Looking into ur eyes Oh, wont u walk through And bust in the door And take me away Oh no more mistakes Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

Wishing star

2009-05-31T04:29:00.004+08:00

Angel eyes why do you look back

And all this time how did you know thatI'd be here

In this world all alone

So don't make me wait, honey

Don't make me say it out loud

Don't hesitate no honey

Or it will all fall down

Angel eyes why do you gaze

Eveytime I loose my way

You, find me here

So don't make me wait, honey

Don't make me say it out loud

Don't hesitate now honey

Or it will all fall down

.

2009-05-28T23:35:00.001+08:00

FUCK

THE

TEST!

2009-05-27T22:23:00.004+08:00

Okay, a post while having my dinner now.

GYm-ed today with Jason.

Den Studied EFMA .

For a while only though. We were like talking throughout.!

I hope this post CONTAINS NO VULGARITIES.

I have a deal with someone.

If I scold any more vulgarities.

Some part of my body is gonna hurt.

Ahhhh, does that sounds exciting ???

If it is, then ur officially a sadist.

Anyway,

To LiYan,

Like what I said earlier this afternoon,

sometimes we need to be sad once in a while.

Although its nice and feel great looking at things positively and staying happy everytime.

However when ur suppose to look, feel or sound sad.

DO SO !

Because we humans are created with emotions to express.

Dont go against nature,

Follow nature and you will gain enlightenment.

LOL, I know I talk like some Buddha or something now.

However true enough, emotions are the strongest emotions,

its good to keep it under control.

Its even better to use it once in a while.

Anyways, went with DIXON to LAB !

That trip cost me 70 dollars.

Inclusive of SUMMONS !!!

WOah summons.

Talking about summons.

I cannot express myself deep enough to show my love for summons.

The excitement and adrenaline rush I get whenever I see a summon !

Just like how I forgot to put cashcard into my ERP unit.

ANd I see a ERP Gantry like 20 metres ahead and all the cars are travelling behind you at high speed on the highway.

U cannot stop to slot ur cashcard.

U cannot cut off the power to the ERP gantry.

The lights on the ERP gantry displaying the words and letter looks extremely bright !

Looks like it has been sucking a lot of blood from us, poor Singaporeans.

I pity them.

Anyway, I have to continue.

So its just like you open ur eyes to the widest,

Open ur mouth to the widest.

Down one gear.

Gun ur throttle

AND SHOUT 'FCCCUUUKKK'

and dash pass the ERP gantry..

Theres only one word to describe this kinda feeling

SHHIIOOKK !!!!!

Wa ok I had enough fun here. I am going back to my dinner.

Its turning cold.

GOOD NIGHTS EVERYONE ~!

Hectic week.

2009-05-25T17:47:00.006+08:00

Punggol till 3am ++ ytd.

Let the pictures do the talking =)

Theres an earthquake !

Custom made shirt. =)

0000...

Yum Yum.

Jump sweeties.

My face cramp !!!

I cover who LOL.

Journey Of My Life.

2009-05-22T16:41:00.016+08:00

Was Browsing thru my photos.

And happen to came across all this pictures of the past.

I think its worthwhile to think about the past once in a while.

So ya, here are all the pics.

Me and dearest Mum!

Me and lovely Sissy
at a super young age.

Jie Jie force me to take one.

And I very buay song,

So I step fierce with the camera !

ButterFact.

Tarrr.

Colourful

L for ?

Nice car ?

I bought it yesterday !

Going to sell my head at geylang.

Durian.

Hi aye.

7 years.

Same Bday !

Where was this ? V long ago..

The biggest bear I ever encountered in my life.

I think that bear cost a few thousand.

I knew because I was working there.

Harrods bear !

Super Cute

Sec 3 ?

Emo

Gin Bday !

Did I cut Bangs or wad ?!

Play water.

Is this taken when we were drunk ?

Yo, Trying to act punk eh ?

Half face-d

Young Me

I just realised I do A lot of stupid things

Emo

I am gonna eat u up

PasT Tense

Past Participle Tense

A Noun

Same Clothing, Same Bag, Same Age, Same Photo, Same Age. Same everything.

Different mother.

Kiam Pa

Ronald MCDONALD.

Fit bo.

Even rocky grew up already.

But seriously, the first time I saw him.

He look exactly like a small cow. >_<

I forgot when was this,

And this.

THAT IS ALL .

For now...

These few days

2009-05-22T16:21:00.002+08:00

Wednesday. Late for school !!!

I am a serious problem with sleeping. I totally dont have enough sleep >_<

Luckily Wed was the day that release early. Intending to go home sleep actually but I dunno how to the hell I met ball.

And I dunno how the hell I spend 200+ dollar just by walking into northpoint...

Actually Just wanna go walk walk.

ZZZ nvm.

Den To my house.

Ball is Dam gay.

And Is a Loser. LOL

Mario also cannot clear stage 1.

At there play CS.

KPKB , I cnnt sleep !

Den nvm, we go watch gay blog.

Den he started to gay with me.

Guess wad he did ?!

HE FCUKING KISSED ME !!!

Ball : Kiss..

ZiHao: Eh Fuck u gay ah.

Ball : Kisses Again.....

ZiHao: Fuck Ur mother sia.

Ball: Kisses AGAIN !

ZIHAO : FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. *Walks away*....

But guys, he dint kiss me face.

He just kiss my forearm,

BUT THAT IS GAY ENUFF.

Anyway, thanks Rebecca for the deoderant or wadever u call it.

Thursday. I was late for school again ! Super late.

I went late and I left early !

LOL, Too tired already. Was sleeping in class.

Den Went home to slp, cancelled off my tut.

Den at night went to Serangoon find Earny and Kaiiy

Nice Ice Cream LOL.

I think everytime I come ur boss will lose over 10 dollars one. LMAO.

Den slack at there till late.

Den back to yishun slack again !

AND THEN FRIDAY I AM LATE FOR SCHOOL AGAIN !

Lolol,

I think my attendance jia lat already.

Kena debar sooner or later....

Now back to home. !

I so so freaking gonna sleep.

Tmr I got helloads of place to go LOL.

Tonight also ah.

LOL.

CIAOS !!!!

Singapore Pools

2009-05-19T21:51:00.003+08:00

THAT DAY SOMEONE ASK ME TO BUY 1880.

Den I ask my mum to help me buy. And it came out 1808. !

Den dunno is last sat or wad my mum bought my lic plate number 6067.

It came out 6076.

LOLOLOL.

The numbers like to switch houses with their neighbours. !

Den ytd RACHEL show me how life has been unfair for me.

She first day got so much money already !

Ask me to do those SAI GANG !

Do here do there.

Plain Kuku Bird can ?

Wait one fine day u sure die !!

I make u do ten times more den wad I DID !

U hear me or not MS ANG!

LMAO.

Ytd dunno talk wad cock until I forget everything now liao.

But anyway U really super nonsense.

I wonder wad other things did u do other den kill frogs in sk LOL.

Oh ya, forgot to mention JK's treat us to ice cream !!

HAHA at one famous Ice Cream shop, Cant mention name though.

Totaly bill suppose to be 48 dollar one but we oni pay 12 dollar.

The ice cream waffle is dam nice la.

And the orea mocha.

And the cheese stick.

Shyt, I better stop saying. I am hungry already !

AND GUYS !.

ARE we going to the museum ON FRI, SAT OR SUN ! ?

I needa treat someone a big meal !

Not someone. Is some family !

LOL, pocket confirm big big hole.

Help me think of a place ley.

6 people altogether leis.

Go easy on me ar !!!

TATA

Yesterday at AGL

2009-05-18T14:32:00.000+08:00

First itsMalaysia police

NOW ITS MALAYSIA CARS.

What the F is wrong lol.

I wonder how malaysia driving centres works.

Does they even have A BASIC THEORY TEST ?!

Dont u know that minor roads have to give way to major road traffic ?

Do u fucking dunno that or u dun care ?

I nearly got into a triple accident ytd with earn LOL.

2 Involving malaysia vehicles who obviously have their eyes on their ass or their mirrors inverted.

And one Singaporean car who obviously has its signal light SPOILT OR STEERING WHEEL RECTANGLE IN SHAPE.

Stop cutting into my lane and slow down.

If u freaking need me to bang u desperately.

Get out of ur car.

I will bang ur ass.

I cannot describe how close I am before I met with an accident with them.

Anyway, at AH GUA LANE. We saw a SUPER SUPER HOT GIRL.

SUPER ULTRA MODEL KIND.

Majiam got aura ONE. LOL.

BUT AS SOON AS SHE SPEAKS.

I TELL U I NEARLY RAN AWAY.

IT SOUNDS LIKE A FREAKING DINOSAUR !!!!!!!

I am on Ah Gua Lane, so guess what kinda ' girls ' i see ?

YES AH GUA LOL.

Anyway, after much forcing den earn came down to the backlane with me to see ah gua.

But we still dont dare to walk down.

Ltr kena rape =X

Anyway back to KS Motor,

THere really got girls.

REAL ONE!

And we have a debate about them.

Debate for very long.

Debate about wad ?

SECRET.!

HAHAHAHA.

Stop the rain now I NEED TO LEAVE MY HOUSE DAM IT.!

I LOVE MY BIKE. I LOVE MY BIKE !

2009-05-18T03:30:00.000+08:00

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this...I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do.

“When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us."

STAR TREK

2009-05-17T05:43:00.006+08:00

Star Trek is a NICE MOVIE !!

Go watch go watch everyone.

The first 15 min already gave me goosebumps.

Provided that if u understand the story line.

I am bad at linking stories by myself, guess I needa read more story books !

Anyway Jim's Dad was an awesome man.

I doubt theres very few of this kind of ppl in Singapore anymore.

Because of the realistic and competitive society.

Humans are force to be selfish and fight for their own survival.

Anyway, today I ate TIAN JI CHOU.

I asked MW to show me how he kill the frog.

We chose a super big fat frog.

MW killed it in 10 seconds. !

Btw the frog is about 30cm long.!

I will explain in detail how the frog got killed !!!

First, MW held the frog by its stomach with its four lims swimming and struggling in the air.

Next MW cut off his head with a scissors !

The blood flow out of its neck like tap !!!

Next the left arm was cut off.

Then the right !!!

Followed by the left feet !

And then the right feet !!!!!!!!

So now this frog is left with no head no limbs but only the body.

That is not enough,

THE NEXT PART IS FCUKING GROSS !!!!

From the bloody neck, MW PEEL OFF THE SKIN OF THE FROG!

YES FORCEFULLY !!!!!

FROM THE NECK TO THE ASS !!!

EVERYTHING !!!

I AM NOT KIDDING !!!

I SHOULD HAVE VIDEO IT DOWN.

This happens everytime we order a frog porridge.

This is how they kill a frog to serve u freshly in that hot claypot.

Frog porridge has always been a favourite to me.

However, after today I guess I will have to cut down on the intake of frogs.

THe way they died is simply too ke lian.

And for all the pains they went through.

THEY ARE ONLY WORTH 8 DOLLARS !!

Worse, MW charge us $2 only.

That big fat frog has live its life in vain.

My condolence.

And then sth v sway happen.

JK's bike PISTON JAM !

ZZZ.

I am prolly going to jb to service my bike soon.

Scared alr.

Lucky u not travelling fast. If not ...........

ANYWAY THE POINT IS THAT MAY IS A FUCKING SWAY MONTH.

Alot of things happen.

Den later later in the night.

Went to town to play lan.

MY HEAD HURTS THE MOMENT I GET DOWN MY BIKE.

Hurts like mad.

From my neck to my left eye.

GOSH!!

SPOIL MOOD.

aND

I am selling off my phone soon.

I dowan a handphone anymore.

And, My Jie is dam nice.

Bought me a formal clothes from crocodile =)

Thanks thanks ^_^

ANYWAY THE POINT TO EVERYONE IS,

NEXT TIME U ORDER FROG PORRIDGE.

THINK TWICE.!!

GOOD NIGHTS ALL!

Encouragement

2009-05-16T03:30:00.008+08:00

First I learn,

Later I forget,

Now I remember. !

Its a long way before realisation.

Other things can come later.

I am not in a hurry.

In life, anything can happen anytime.

Which you may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late.

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever.

If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.

I say I hope u understand.

Truth is,

its a t**t of a f****l phase.

A post of hidden meaning.

Only u will understand.

Dont wait,

Time waits for no one.

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime.

2009-05-15T12:54:00.003+08:00

You have done enough.

My mind took over my heart.

I dunno why they call it heartbroken.

But It seems like every part of my body is broken as well.

Its over. I am abused, and my relief must be to loathe her.

Mistake on my part.

Lets move on.

Its a Sin to not share

2009-05-13T15:18:00.002+08:00

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.
He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.'

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.

He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?'
The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her.
She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying:

'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.'

This is how the human brain often works when our status changes.

Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who died too early on this earth.

Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren..

Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive, Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us is without sin.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and think: you're alive and still around. =)

Skipp school

2009-05-13T01:29:00.003+08:00

Today I skip school.

Den I wake up late.

Den rush to work.

Den to meet kai to pass me back the money.

Den meet everyone else.

Den meet KC to wash my bike.

Bro thanks for the amway things ar.

And thanks for helping me book my BTT =D

U are never slow.

ALWAYS FAST AND EFFICIENT.

Next time sure earn a lot of money one

haha.

Den to semb park.

Lepak and think thru some stuffs.

ALl of us emo there.

LOL.

Den I bth and went back home.

Here I am, blogging.

ALVIN, I SHALL SEE U VERY VERY VERY SOON !!!

I never MIA v long. Is I v busy!!

I know u miss me, dont need tell me on phone ma.

Too mushy alr I will blush one haha.

Tmr school starts at 8am. I still thinking whether to go or not. SIGH.

AND YES, My mother stain my clothes !!!

Sobz.

Now got red red mark on my white white tee shirt. !

I really got no fate with white .

Hopefully can go back and change with the shop ! =P

I really need more collar shirt for work !

And berms.

AND A NEW SLIPPER !!!

Who wanna go shopping ?

Thats about it,
GOOD NITES ALL !

Hope ur leg recover quickly.
I FCUKING MISS YOU !!!

FCUKING MALAYSIA POLICE.

2009-05-12T02:48:00.004+08:00

I though this was cute.

Sweet

Not all are present =(

Tell you guys something infuriating.

I got bullied by 2 malaysian police.

The way they talk to me is FUCKING RUDE.

Fucking act one BIG OFFICER. One super big shot .

I treat you one BIG SHOT of my IRON FINGER.

Seriously, two middle fingers is not enough for those two retards

I say they are retarded.

Because when I was approaching them.

One of them stand in front of the other one.

And each police pointed at a different direction for me to stop my bike.

LOL, HOW UNPROFESSIONAL.

Xia Sway urself.

Police A point to left.

Police B point to right.

LIM PEI SHOULD HAVE GO STRAIGHT !!!

AND BANG U DOGS.

Police A : eh get down ur bike now.

Police B : License.

DINT EVEN LOOK AT IT,

Police B : ur IC

WTF? U TOOK MY LICENSE STILL MUST SEE IC AR?

FURTHERMORE U DINT EVEN BOTHER LOOKING AT IT.

Police A : U nv on headlight, we summon u.

FUCK U!

Ur english fail ar ?

THe government summons me, who are u to summon me.

Ur mother name government ar.

Me: Okay so how much is the summon for not switching on my headlight

Police B: 200Ringgit

Police A: 300............

THEY SAY TOGETHER!

HOW RETAREDED.

TWO DIFF POLICE GOT TWO DIFFERENT AMOUNT OF SUMMON.

WHY ?

RANK HIGHER CAN SUMMON MORE ISIT.

I AT SINGAPORE NEVER ON HEADLIGHT KENA SUMMON $30 ONLY.

I DINT KNOW MALAYSIA SUMMON CAN HIT AS HIGH AS 300 !

FUCKING DOGS.

ME: NO MONEY LA.

Police A: U got a problem is it ?

Me: Yes, I NO MONEY AND THAT IS A FCUKING BIG PROBLEM .

Police B : How much money u have now.

Me: I dunno v little.

Police B: Take out all ur money.

Me: U police or robber ?

Me: Take out 30 Ringgit.

Police A : Okay so u wan to pay ur summon here ?

Me: LOLOLOLOLOL. FUNNY

SUMMON CAN PAY STRAIGHT TO POLICE one.

Me: I am gonna give u 20 ringgit, I am off.

Police A: Next time remember to on ur headlight.

Me: Ur father earthworm.

Police : Waaaa......hat ?

Vroooom.

FCUKING SHOULDNT HAVE PAY THOSE RETARDED DOGS.

WAN TAKE BRIBE JUST SAY LA, TALK SO MUCH WASTE MY TIME.

Summon ONE LONELY 18 YEAR OLD P PLATE SINGAPOREAN.

CCB WISH U COME SINGAPORE GIVE POLICE CATCH FOR EATING CHEWY GUM.

KENA CHARGE.

Jail Term: TEN YEAR

Cane: 24 strokes.

FINE: UR MOTHER.

Thinking of it, even if I dint pay they also cant do anything.

They want send summon to my house ar?!

LASTLY.

FCUK U MALAYSIA POLICE.

FUCK U AGAIN !

Weekends!

2009-05-10T07:32:00.005+08:00

Fri, after school. Went to Suntec, den to the sky garden. Not a good place afterall.

Den to Evan's house. Big house u have there eh.

Den we took like 1 hour to decide whether to go to a pub or club.

Lol sorry that I dont wanna go club.

Anyway had fun with u guys.

And thanks for taking care of me.

Not forgetting Bal's and Co.

DEN TODAY FOR KELVIN 19th BIRTHDAY. !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BRO !!!
7 years and still counting =D

I HOPE U HAD FUN .

THOUGH WE DINT DID ANYTHING V FUN AND HOPE U LIKE UR MOST EXPENSIVE WALLET IN UR LIFE. HOPE U LIKE THE CLASSIC DESIGN LOL!

Fcuking fast sia, sian.

19 sounds like very old leis.

Please stop aging everyone. I am getting afraid LOL. I dowanna hit 20 So soon !!!

And Kelvin u are still as BO LIAO .

No change.

And I think U should help me book my BTT soon.

Shokudo's at Heeren.

I think its a waste of money, at least For me..

I spend 16 dollars and dont feel like I have eaten. LOL

The best part is the Ice macha Stain my white pants.

And at a very unglam part.

I think I got problems with white things.

I always dirty it !

Dam, I'll stick to black.

E hub for a tour.

Den to Kel's house.

And I am wearing a wind breaker.

AND THE AIR CON IS SPOIL.

And there is like 10 people in that room. -.-

Windbreaker = cut off wind from outside.

No air con = oven!

Nice one ar Francis.

I tar lemon tea U tar liquor. LOL

ANyway that liquor 20% nia tar whole bottle nvm la. LOL.

Den to mcdonald for breakfast.

PICTURES TMR =D

ZIHAO PLZ STOP SMOKING.

STOP SMOKING.

STOP SMOKING SO MUCH !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHERS!

2009-05-04T03:54:00.009+08:00

First n foremost.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY TWO WONDERFUL BROTHERS.!

Happy 19th Birthday Mr Chan!

Happy 20th Birthday Mr Jang!

Two old man already, I cant believe how time flies.

I hope both of u like ur presents and have had fun !

BY reading this u have agreed that u like ur presents and have had fun !

I hope all the best comes to both of you.

However when my birthday reach, all the best shall come to me !

Lol, so faster do and get anything u have planned to do now and quick before my turn comes.!

YESTERDAY

Had a nice BBQ at Pasir Ris park to celebrate Mr Chan's BIG day.

The present is kinda unique and hopefully the surprise successfully came off as a surprise.

No doubts ur girlfriend really done a lot for u!

U must be feeling very lucky ya ?!

Because if my GF does this

I will LOVE HER TO THE MAX LOL.

ANyway, sorry for coming late to ur bbq and stuffs.

I just didnt plan my time well enough that day.

But as long as the bbq turns out good then everything else is not important.

ALL THE BEST TO U BRO !

Next,

Sorry for waking up late TODAY, I was suppose to have tuition.

Anyway I cancelled it.

Because its MR JANS's BIG DAY. !

I was totally rushing.

Went to Simei to have the eighteenth dunno wad. I cant remember clearly the name..

It was good, thumbs up to Hansel for the recommendations.

The staff even gave Mr Jang 3 ice cream with his name written in choco and annouce to everyone in the shop to sing a birthday song for Mr Jang.

HAHA, I know u feel very pai seh la.
But one year one time !

Next to E hub arcade.

We play all sorts of game.

LIKE MAD !

From car games to bike games to ball games to doll games etc...

AND I CANNOT BELIEVE WHAT I DID.

I saw this cute doll in the machine. [ its a spotted dog ]

And I put in a 1 dollar coin to try my luck.

and obviously i dint succeed in catching it the first time.

AND

Because I was SOOOO tempted to catch it for her.

And was so determined to catch it.

I use up all the money I have !!!

To change them all into 1 dollar coins to catch that dam thing.

And I STILL DOESNT manage to CATCH IT.

EIther the machine is a con.

Or I just aint cut out to catch this kinda the stuff.

I guess its both !

HAHAHA, anyway I still had fun.

Because I spend the money to give myself a 'blueball' effect.

HAHA, I nearly nearly catch one pink one and its very very neaer to the 'pit'.

But the doll just droppedd !!!!

So I considered that as money well spent too.

At least I had fun.

At least I tried to catch.

Next to dam, took loads of photographs there.

With LACERS.

Lied to JG about the mango orange RX7 we saw which is actually a toy.

HAHA

Shall upload the pictures now. =D
Will Upload the pics of Mr Chan's bday when I got hold of them

I had a good day Today!

2009-05-01T07:16:00.017+08:00

Long day in School.

I wasnt late.

I tried to attend all lesson other den the last lecture due to my high fatigue level.

After which went to 'work'

Den to Clarke Quay to find B and her frens.

Had fun. =D

Had mac in Clarke Quay.

Not filling at all.

But anyway I still enjoyed eating the same thing as her LOL.

Love her man !

Anyway to FY house and thanks to B and her.

For the honey lemon drink, the sweet and everything =D

I am feeling better now.

Den met Balrin, Gid, Kai and Questina.

Den to Thomson.

Initially I was planning to have prata.

Upon reaching the place and sensing the oily floor.

I realise I was still having sore throat.

SO,

Went to the noodle store beside.

And I totally MUST complain.

THe stupid wok noodle Taste LIKE *(^%&$%^#.

The workers talk like an uneducated child

The Place Sucks like Cat

And the service Fucks Like Dog.

And I dunno whats wrong with all the coffee shops in SG

I ALWAYS, ALWAYS SAY NO CHILLI.

NO CHILLI PLEASE.

They ALWAYS, ALWAYS PUT CHILLI.

ALWAYS!

ANd I ALWAYS ALWAYS HAVE a hard time eating.

VERY HARD TIME !

I normally dont wanna trouble them to change it.

Unfortunately I was not in the right state physically today.

SO decided to ask them to change new one.

TO a NON-CHILLI-ed one.

They fucking take like 15 min to change one noodle.

My soup is alr cold, whats the point of eating the wok thingy if the fire dies off and the food turns cold.

On top of that, the drinks came very slow too.

So, I wish them all the best in their future business.

Because they just lost one potential customer.

So many workers still so slow.

I wont go there again, unless they lucky. LOL.

Gonna find more new places to eat.

ANY RECCOMENDATIONS ANYONE?

For 24 hours GOOD Food And Beverages.!?

Nyways, went to bishan park after that,

Lepak there.

Took some photos and

Some pictures in the toilet. =D

We Screw You.!

Head Squash.

Friendly People =)

LAST, but not least.

There is a video below.

And let me tell you,

IT IS GONNA BE THE BEST THING U WILL EVER SEE.

Presenting the best dancer in the WHOLE OF SOUTH EAST ASIA.

AND HE IS A VERY HANDSOME GUY !

And It is performed in a very special place.! [Uniquely exclusively rare]

Heres the video, dont miss it !

Reminder: Pause my blog song before watching this video. It comes with a song.

Interestiing comment needed after watching.

As interesting as possible.

Enjoy =D

Holding grudges can cause so much. Plz read. !

2009-04-29T02:44:00.004+08:00

This is for all the single, married, divorced, widowed individuals, who take life for granted.

Please I BEG YOU, read this story until the end, it is such an opener.

It is definitely worth your time.

Because it is 3am in the morning now and I have to be in school by 8am tmr but I still post this up after reading it on email.

Credits to Gina.

Not only that, I have also
Sacrificed my sleep to

Edit this post.

To make it look neat and tidy for YOU to read.]

Do take 15 min of your life to read.

Yours Sincerely.
~~~~~~~~~~~

Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with us.

Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young.

Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him through to a university degree.

You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he is today.

I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant greenery.

Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round.

As I begged him to put me down, he said: "Lets go fetch mother.

" Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to test on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets.

Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy.

I became addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling.

Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her.

For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment:

"I do not know how you young people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for?

You also can't eat flowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better."

Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowly you will get use to it."

Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs.

I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure.

Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they cost,

I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it.

Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it."

There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle.

Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast.

In your view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother facial expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice.

She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest.

As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and am exhausted from along day of dancing around,

I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the protest mother makes.

From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon her help created additional work for me.

For example: she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags;

she would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings,

I would quietly wash them again.

One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room.

Hubby was placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night.

I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me.... I got mad and asked him:

"What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once?

We couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?" After that incident, for a long period of time,

mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house.

During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please.

In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting.

At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed to perform my duty as a wife..

To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work.

That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not to eat at home?"

He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me.

After some time, hubby sighed: "LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no choice but to return to the breakfast table.

The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up my throat.

I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I could not. I threw down the bowl, rushed into the washroom, and vomited everything out.

Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudly in her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at me with fire burning in his eyes..

I opened my mouth but no words came out of it, I really did not mean it.We had our very first big fight that day;

mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house.

Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs. For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call.

I was so furious, since mother arrived; I had been trying my best and putting up with her, what else do you want me to do?

For no reason, I keep having the feeling to throw up and I simply have not appetite for food, coupled with all the events happening at home,

I was at the low point in my life.

Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible; you should go and see a doctor." The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant.

Now it became clear to me why I threw up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news.

Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through this before, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day?

At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only been three days, but he looked haggard.

I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look at him and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called out to him.

He followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't know me; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right through my heart.

I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby:

"Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me around in circles of joy.

What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears started rolling down. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the testof one fight?

Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the disgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket.

That night, sound of the drawersopening woke me up. I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face.

He was removing the money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book and some money and left the house.

Maybe he really intends to leave me for good. What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters.

I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again. The next day, I did not go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby.

I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital."

I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless.

I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen?

Throughout the funeral, hubby did not say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare at me.

I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people.

That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed toward the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the countryside.

As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her...

I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarrelled, if....

In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother.

Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him..

And me, I am buried under the guilt and self-pity and could hardly breathe.

I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in.

I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.

Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby came home later and later.

The deadlock between us continues, we were living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot in his heart.

One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window,

I saw hubby and a woman sitting facing each other and
he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant.

After recovering from that moment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes.

I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything.

The woman looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go, hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her.

He stared back at me, challenging me. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death.

I eventually backed down, if I had stood that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me.

That night, he did not come home; he had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other.

He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned to take some of his stuff.

I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished. I lived alone;

I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physical examination.

My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby,

I told them No, I will not..

I insisted on having to this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death. One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room.

The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it.

In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a while, I will sign."

He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like mine.

As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there.

After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy.

I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pulled the paper towards me.

Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the paper to him.

"LD, are you pregnant?" Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops.

I said: "Yes, but it’s OK, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing each other. Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket.

In my heart, everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach them. I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me.

I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever.

We have drawn such deep scars in each other's heart. For me, it's unintentional; for him, totally intentional.

I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated.

Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart,

I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him.

From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart.

Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room.

He had no choice but to sleep in mother's room..

At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet.

This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him, he would then grab me and laugh.

He has forgotten that last time I cared for him and am concerned because there was love, but now, what is there between us?

Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing but I continuously ignored him..

Almost every day, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read.

Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full.

I know he is trying to use this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions.

He has no choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear him typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing but none of that matters to me anymore.

It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain,

hubby came rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment.

He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brow, throughout the journey to the hospital.

Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite.

Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind: In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did?

He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in; his warm eyes caused me to manage a smile at him despite my contraction pain.

Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son and me, eyes tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand.

Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his...

I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment.

Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this long.

I asked the doctor when he first discovered he had cancer.

Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral."

I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me.

Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that...

the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son: "Son, just for you, I have persisted,

to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks,

if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be.

But daddy now no longer has that chance..

Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion....

Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through life journey.

To be honest, daddy is very happy.

Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..."

From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written there.

Hubby has also written a letter for me:

"My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby...

My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile, thank you for loving me...

These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging... "

Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma.

I brought our son over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..."

He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son still in his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air.

I press the button on the camera and the sound of the shutter rang through the air as tears slowly rolled down my face.....

A fatal misunderstanding and the person who loves me the most in this world is gone forever...

"Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family. Our originals intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong as destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price, everything became too late."........

This is a true story.

LEARNING POINT - DO NOT EVER HOLD ON TO OFFENCES!!!

Have A Good Night !

I feel terrible

2009-04-28T11:39:00.004+08:00

I am having severe SORE THROAT AND FLU !!!

I am sneezing like an idiot right now.

Its like once in every 2 s.

And I cant even type properly.

Mr Juay Please Please do not fall sick. I still have a long day ahead.

A LONG WEEK rather !

Plz, dont fall sick idiot !

And please stop the rain.

I needa go to school !!

Anyway going to school soon.

Gonna go prepare for sch alr.

CYA GUYS. Be back quite late tonight. Around 9 plus.

Ignored

2009-04-27T18:49:00.005+08:00

Will be very busy starting tmr. Every day will be the same.

I am prepared.
I am determined this year.

Anyway, going to Alene's house soon.

Her mother dam cute LOL.

Need someone like me to teach.

after her house going to JB.

Den back to wash bike.

And den prepare for tmr school !

My schedule will be like today almost everyday.

However I purposely squeeze everything together.

I left Friday and Sat free.

I miss you =/